Tuesday, December 28th, 2010...16:39
Dream oh Dream
Have you ever dreaming about something that you want it so bad and when it comes true but not exactly as you want, you will be really disappointed. It’s like maybe during summer you really want chocolate ice cream but too lazy to go buy it, suddenly your friend came by and bring you a box of vanilla ice cream. You have the ice cream but not exactly a flavor that you want to. At that situation I thought that we have three options, just enjoy the ice cream despite its flavor or eat the ice cream but regret it why your friend doesn’t bring your favorite flavor or refuse to eat the ice cream.
In life, I learn that I don’t always get what I want; sometimes I have to make a difficult choice despite my pleasure. And this day was one kind of the day that I had to choose to accept that I only had a non-exactly dream. Confusing situation, huh? Today I’ve been offered to be a lecture in my department but I have to teach a major that I don’t like. Why it’s kind of bothering me? It’s because to teach a major in my department, I have to take another 3 year study. Taking 3 year full of papers and assignments was my last choice especially if I don’t like the major.
Therefore I called my parents to take some opinions and advice from them. They really excited because if I take this opportunity, I will be an official (aka. PNS) and they convinced me that somehow I will manage to like my new major, they said that I will get used to it. Feeling unheard, I called my best friend; I hope she will give me some consideration that will help me to decide. She said that this was a big opportunity because in my department it’s hard to be promoting in that position. And the major that they offered didn’t that bad because it’s kind of challenging and will be a lead major in the future.
Courtesy of todayinpt.com
In life, we always have to choose. One choice will change our life into different way. Is our choice is the right one? How we do know it before it happen? Can we trust our parent, our spouse or our best friends? Then I pray to God, I feel ashamed because that was the last thing that I remember. Finally I manage to calm my worry although He not shows me really clear what I should do. I just know that He would be in my side, encouraging and settling me when I’m worried. I realized that maybe it’s His plan to fulfill my dream although not exactly that I wanted to, but my plan is not His plan and I believe that He knows what the best for me.
